I've had diaries in the past, but they were read by people I knew, I've had a diary on a computer but the computer broke, so now I will try online, where I can be just an anonymous person, venting their opinions and troubles into the open space of the internet.
It helps writing things down, so I cam visualize the problem rather than trying to imagine it in my mind, not quite being able to pin it down.
I know I will only write this blog when I am troubled by something.
I am lucky. I have a loving family, had a privileged upbringing, traveled the world, I am young, I love a man and he loves me, a great job, a good future.
Despite this I feel sad, its self indulgent and I wish I wasn't but I can't shift this sadness. I've been told in the past I am a depressive, and its said as if I were wrong to feel that way. Is it really? who wants to feel like this? Who doesn't want to be happy and content with their life?!
I shall give a little background information. I was born in 1981 and I am half french. both my parents are successful middle-class people, I have a much younger sister. I enjoy lots of expensive pass times -horse riding, skiing, scuba diving, travel. I read when I can, books on feminism, politics, biographies, travel. I love food, I drink, sometimes too much, I don't smoke, I have a wide circle of friends. There is someone special in my life, a guy I met a year ago, he lives 45 mins from me and we are very close. I am in my final year of my phd at a top-rated university doing an interesting and stimulating scientific subject.
